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Sunday, December 31, 2006
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVE!!!
time flies, very soon 2006 will come to a close.. after stepping into ac, i feel that time just passes without me realising... very quickly i've lost 2 of my prime years... i'll be 19 next year!! lol~
yup.. in a few hours, will be counting down at a family reunion party at my aunt's place~
so to all you guys out there,
HAPPY 2007!!!oh yup, and since the new year's coming up, i think i should be listing down my new year's resolutions!!
kaela @
6:20:00 PM
date:
Friday, December 29, 2006
urgh the internet's really messed up=S can't access to anything that takes less than 10 seconds to load! that's 10 seconds, if i'm lucky=S
i don't think i can upload pics yet, it'll take ages and ages.
so latest update, i just went to
Dunearn's staff meeting earlier on tdy!!
i am now officially a relief teacher =)
okay not really relief, cause i actually have many many classes under me, and i actually have to teach----
HISTORY=/
haha but then again, i shall bring history to the present=)
*high ambitionsso basically, i'll be teaching
1e2, 1e3, 1e4, 1n1, 1n2, 1n3, 2n2, 2n3, and 3n3.so many classes right!!that's 9 classes=S i have 27 effective teaching peroiods. ant only has 21!! no fair! cause we're paid the same amt! urgh. for 3n3, it's not really teaching. i have to spend 4 periods monitoring them while they do their digital learning=S
for 1n1, i'm teaching ss. the rest, all hstory-/
by a twist of fate, i'm actually replacing my former sec 1 history teacher...
*reminisesi still rmb back in sec 1, she gave me one more mark for free so i could get an A1 grade. so i could get straight A's for that term=) she was also my form teacher back then~
this is the part where you guys go 'awwwww'... =Dbut my days end pretty early, the latest at 140 on mondays, weds and thurs. friday's my slackest cause i only have 2 classes=) maybe i'll be getting another job.. depends~ i shal try out the first week or so, cause there's really alot of preparation to be done, and marking and all... now i know why teachers are paid so much. it's really alot of work! and they have alot of other admin stuff to be settled=S
i'm already so confused=S i need a 2007 planner ...NOW! lol~
so quickly. it's only been 1 month plus since i got rid of my books and notes. now, i'm back to studying=S have to spend the next few days cramming in the first few haps and the lesons plans and the work to set and all=S oh well. that's why the pay's so high=) least i'm not in the teachers welfare group=S they actually have things like that!
oh yup, before i get a second job, date me out after 2=) haha plenty of time=) unless i need to rush some marking=)
oh and one more thing. i need to chiong the malls=D after the damn long meeting and mini-training, i rushed off to buy new shoes and a skirt=) will be hunting for blouses and short sleeved tops and more bottoms=S i am seriously in lack, and i'm gg broke=S oh no...
and i still def need a planner!!will psycho dad into subsidising at least half my expenses=) try anyway=)okays, date me out soon! before i turn into a dusty mouldy historian=)
kaela @
11:58:00 PM
date:
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
christmas has been a lovely time..
not my best, cause i had a fight with my family, but overall it was okay~
caught the holiday at the cathay earlier on, not bad~
took some pics too, but not really in the mood to do uploading.
well there are just these days where you feel down~
after the turkey trip, i've been really happy. but after watching a sad show on tv just now, and crying alot, i realised it actually felt good to be sad for awhile... it's like, some kind of emotional balance thing~ =S
recently, there've been quite a lot gg with my relationships, with my friends, family, and yuan. i still rmb that there was a time when everything was gg on really well... but now, things have changed...
my family and i have this wall, thin though, but nevertheless a barrier. we can't communicate, we don't see eye to eye. and i'm getting less tolerant and patient to talk to them, cause i know that's how they feel too. we're just putting up with one another..
with my friends, after what they did to me, it left a really big scar behind. even though the trip has mended my wounds and encouraged me to try again, i can't help but feel this sense of a need to hold back. i'm afraid to trust them again, whether or not what they did before was intentional or not. yes i've forgiven and am forgetting, but it's just really hard for me to open up so freely like before... because, the feeling of losing all that's important to you in one night, it's really alot to bear... it took me a long trip to a faraway place to slowly let go... now that everything's somewhat back in place, i find myself having trouble trusting this same scene again. because they same scene before me crushed me once, everything seems like a facade now, i don't know what to trust.
and it's so confusing. all i want, are honest relationships. but almost all that i had were crushed overnight, it's so hard to rebuild the trust again...
okay i know i sound really emo now=S
sorry to put you guys through this misery=S
i'll post christmas pics and turkey pics up soon. some day when i'm not so lazy=) haha so many things to post abt! and plus i'll be gg for cg chalet tmr=S
oh yup,
merry post x'mas!
kaela @
11:42:00 PM
date:
Friday, December 22, 2006
okays i've been posting alot alot of events i guess. it's just that so much has been happening! haha like tdy, which i shan't go on abt since i don't have my pics up.
hmmm, time for deep reflections~
okay gg to turkey has really improved my spirits. it's amazing how a trip away from everything around you can work such wonders. all the resentful air around has dissipated into nothingness.
i guess from the recent pics, you guys can tell things have changed. i'm not sure how either, and of course i have my doubts and questions and all... but i guess, love is a doubt-killer, cause you'll just fall head-first into everything. and i really do still love him, so i wouldn't mind getting back tgt.. but things people, like my mum have said to me just keeps finding its way around to the front of my thoughts.
mum said, if he could bear to do that to you, dropping everything on you suddenly, having planned it for so long, are you sure you can still continue to trust and have faith in this relationship? since you didn't expect it to turn out that way in the past, how would you know it won't just 'suddenly' happen again?
i guess, my greatest flaw has its blessings. for those of you guys who know me well, you'll know that i'm a really forgetful person. i forget things instantly, and i forget things that hurt me quickly too. many a times i find myself angry at myself for being such a forgetful person. but at times, i thank God for this blessing. once i forget, i forgive. and it no longer surfaces again, unless of course, if the memory is awakened by a stimulating incident.
don't worry guys. i'm sry for being so down in the past. but in this trip, i've seen so much, experienced a totally different world, been in a different time zone, with sharply different temperatures. and .. the world is sooo big. turkey has all these empty empty land. in Singapore, you hardly walk 100m before the land is blocked by a large obstacle.
christmas has reminded me again abt love. so i've found my essence again. searching for gifts, wrapping them at the expense of my manicure, and imagining the joy it woulld bring the person. i don't care if i don't receive one in turn, cause love never requests for any returns.
i know what you mean now by love is giving and never demanding nor expecting, covering the flaws of the others, overlooking the imperfections. just like the way God and Jesus never once were disgusted at how ugly and sinful we are, with our imperfections and impurity. but instead, Jesus's love covered us all..
and it's because of this amazing love, that we celebrate christmas..
okay i know i've been gg on for really long now, but there's just so much i wanted to say...
i'm really thankful to all the friends and well-wishers. you guys made 2006 special...
bad things happen; by remaining optimistic, there'll always be that glimmer of hope inside.
and hope grows
if cultivated, with love.
merry christmas guys,
you're all deeply cherished!!
love, shu.
kaela @
9:36:00 PM
date:
Thursday, December 21, 2006
SHOPPING SPREE 19TH-21ST DEC 06!!
haha been shopping like mad since i got back from turkey=)
busy getting last minute gifts, and i'm gg so broke!!=S
yup here are some pics of my days!
19th:
Ikea for the meatballs! and salmon=) [where i met yueheng!!]
raffles city for ribbons
perlini's for silver
town, taka
bookbinders for wrappers
art friend
m)phosis for pants!
anchorpoint bloomington
on the train back
haha silly faces=)
reflections! he looks fierce!
oh the christmas lightings at town=)
=)
the three wise men!!
xuan and i! at beans=)
20th:
met up with xuan to shop at town
met up with qiu~
bought lots.
yuan caused me to step into mud=S gross! i spent 15 mins washing everything off!
christmas tree at taka=)
christmas tree at paragon=) love the stars!
haha i can nvr do that!!
haha everyone's doing crazy shopping!
21st:
vivo city!!
qiu and jc came along
bought almost all the gifts i needed=)
santa santa!
i like this! they have the same one outside tangs
bad cameraman
only qiu this time
us both!
us 4!
haha qiu and i dressed quite similarly=)
expensive toys!!
on the way back~
haha he looks stoned here
and i look weird
reflection at mrt station=)
my new shades!
haha i like my hair here=)
kaela @
9:19:00 PM
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omg. i'm still jet-lagging.
my body clock's so messed up! the day before, i couldn't sleep. slept near 4, woke at 8 all energised=S last night, slept abt 2, woke at 12. ohnoohnoohno!!
haha okay been busy xmas shopping these 2 days. gg to hit vivo tdy=) only left with eunice's and jo's and mum's and a few small gifts. =)
update soon! if i don't get home too late tdy! haha i need more ribbons=S
kaela @
12:34:00 PM
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okay another old post. same day as the shopping trip with eee, this was the home i returned to after=) enjoy.!
dec 1 06
1.47am
me and cute desiree
desiree!
her mom. =D
my mum=S
my mum again!! LOL!!
me in my newly altered prom dress!
desiree took this!
haha=D
she's damn naughty la
it was all her idea. SHE wanted to cam-whore. SERIOUSLY!
her foot. =S
a pic she drew!! got her to do something so i could take a breather.
the monkey got everyone to do monkey faces! lol. i didn't post mine=D too ugly!
kaela @
10:47:00 AM
date:
Monday, December 18, 2006
okay so decided to publish one of the really old drafts. my shopping trip with eee~
december 1 2006
2.12am
i think we took this on the way back
this too
this three!
met shuang ai! my pri sch bestie=)
and treated ourselves to a manicure
which reminds me, i desperately need to redo mine now. my nails are disgusting after turkey
at lido
still at lido
as you can see, we just cam-whored. haha i missed eee! havent seen her in ages, so we took loads of pics=) plus i just got a new cam!
SLURP!!
mirror in toilet=)
mirror outside life area in wisma
escalator to food rebublic=)
we named this 'THE WALKWAY'
the oath we took like...10 times to sony ericcson to check my queue no. =S
the sony ericsson outlet
at starbucks!!
our fruits of the day!
me testing the cam
picture perfect!!
haha candid~
hmmm can't rmb what we were doing.
oh christmas deco at wisma
more.
outside tangs=)
town lights!
i like this!
big eyes ee
MEGAWATT=D
mrt reflection. the 6th try i think=)
haha i so love shopping and hanging out. even if it appears boring, it's reqally not. cause see, idon't exactly shop or chat while snapping away. so basically, pics here were time devoted to camera seasoning=D
kaela @
11:12:00 PM